I am writing to you when I am just about to reach 60.
I would like to tell you that you can stop thinking about committing suicide at age 18 if you have to wear arm protheses again “the age when women wear rings on their fingers“. You will wear rings on your toes and never again have to go back to institution.
And no, you don’t have to only concentrate on your brain “because you have nothing to offer to a man and you need to wait for an old professor who marries you because of your intelligence“. In fact you will marry a younger man with whom you be happily married for a long time and have two wonderful sons.
You will also find out that living a lesbian life can be even more exciting and all it takes is to be yourself! But be aware that life remains a risk, you will never be sure what is the right decision in your life!